I often wonder about the way that my life unfolded in order to bring me to the here and now.
Was all the pain for a reason?![]()
The mistakes simply bridges back onto the road of my life?
The bad decisions a way for the good decisions to emerge from the darkness?
I often couldn’t see past the minute details of whatever circumstance or situation was occurring. But I have, through time learned to look past the immediate and gaze into the wonder of the bigger picture being constructed behind the obvious everyday events. In hindsight I can see that everything that has occurred, be it good bad or indifferent, all occurred exactly the way it should have in order for me to find myself in the present moment.
Now in 69 days or less a new journey will begin, one that has been forming itself throughout the course of my life, but has only now been able to come to pass, with the drastic and dynamic change that have taken place throughout the past two years.
I still sometimes wonder how I ended up where I am today.
How did I escape the sadness of life to discover the absolute miracles that are weaved in and out of each moment of the day? All I did was want something different in my life something better, something more fulfilling, something that felt right. The only thing I knew how to do at the moment was to….
Write.
Write.
Write.
And life, as crazy as it sounds seemed to organize itself in an orchestration of coincidences that led me onto the path leading me to the present point in time.
Could it have been that simple?
Was there something more occurring?
Now with Motherhood approaching I often think about my child, my daughter and the paths of her own life. The journey and the discoveries she will encounter along the way. As much as I know the pain and glory of my own journey, there is a greater part of me that prays she will never have to experience the heartache that I have known.
But it will be her path, her journey and her life…I am only her guide through the process. Yet my hope is that I will have the capacity to lead her, until she is able to do so herself.












