The Process of a Miracle.

Much of my time was lived by default watching the years go by as I clung to my limitations on the merry-go round of my life.

Around and around I go.

A flash of bright lights illuminating moments in time in a whirlwind of….

Situations.
Circumstances.
Events.
Ideas.
People.
Places.
Things.

Each aspect blurring into the familiar colors of frustration that bleed into the picture of the world I have painted. The constant circular patterns that I have wandered in for so long, that at times leave me wondering if there is anything further then what I have already experienced.

I have learned to stop these cycles.
I have learned that my past does not have to be my present.

I have learned to get off the ride.

I made a decision yesterday that has catapulted me from the distorted comfort of this ride and I find myself now standing at a crossroads of sorts.

Unsure.
Doubtful.

Do I go left?
Do I go right?
Do I go straight ahead?
Do I go backwards….and get back onto my merry go round?

Lost…..I feel lost.

I have enough reference points to know that life will present me with the same situations, time and time again, until I make the decision to change the dynamics of it. It is moments like these where I am flailing in the doubt and uncertainty about a choice I have made that often leads me a step closer to who I want to be and a step closer to the life I choose to live.

It is time like this when I just want answers….

I want someone to just tell me what to do!
I want someone to tell me which way to go!
I want someone to show me the way!
I want someone to tell me how to live my life!

But it doesn’t work that way.

People can help guide me.
Situations can help guide me.
Circumstances can help guide me.
Events can help guide me.
Ideas can help guide me.

But no one can venture forth into the depths of my being to decipher the observations of such aspects, except for me. Only I can stop clinging to the very limitations that create the circumstances of life I get stuck in

All the answers already exist within me.

Every answer I seek.
Every solution I desire.
Every change I wish to pursue.
Every idea I want to change.

Everything I seek already exists…has always existed, waiting for me to embrace it as the truth of my being as my journey within continues.

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