Comments on: Undone http://themiracleprocess.com/2008/04/12/undone/ A 30 Day Experiment. Addiction to Recovery and Beyond. Tue, 06 Jan 2009 13:16:52 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.7 hourly 1 By: Eric "Speedcat Hollydale" http://themiracleprocess.com/2008/04/12/undone/comment-page-1/#comment-3321 Eric "Speedcat Hollydale" Mon, 14 Apr 2008 03:35:51 +0000 http://themiracleprocess.com/?p=161#comment-3321 My comments used to show up right away ... hopefully mine went through ;-) <br> <strong>I'm trying to fight the spammers Speedy...so bear with me in regards to comments posting. I need to approve them first and for some reason I keep deleting some....sowwy :(</strong> My comments used to show up right away … hopefully mine went through ;-)

I’m trying to fight the spammers Speedy…so bear with me in regards to comments posting. I need to approve them first and for some reason I keep deleting some….sowwy :(

]]> By: Eric "Speedcat Hollydale" http://themiracleprocess.com/2008/04/12/undone/comment-page-1/#comment-3320 Eric "Speedcat Hollydale" Mon, 14 Apr 2008 03:31:37 +0000 http://themiracleprocess.com/?p=161#comment-3320 Morgan, I am the expert of nothing, but here is my two cents. I think that as recovering substance abusers that we sometimes think that there will be a goal line to cross, or an epiphany of sorts that signifies our complete and total recovery. The place were we look around and say, "I made it! This is truly where I want to be". Looking for this place is hard because it changes, hour to hour. Being happy for me has always boiled up from the inside, not so much by my surroundings. Recieving love is not really what makes you happy, it's <i>sharing the love you feel inside</i>. My biggest fears, sorrows, and problems have been solved through faith. It seems that the greatest moments are never realized at that exact time. Here is a somewhat detached story / revelation ... I always thought that my old job was the worst. Never saw any of the positive sides to it. After the company went bankrupt, I look back at what I had and wish so much that I could go back. If I could, my days would be so much brighter. Rambling on - :-) ... maybe looking back a ways could shine more light on the here and now. Are you in love? If you are, hold on tight. As my story from before explains, we often have more in our hands than gravity dictates! As always, I wish and want the best for you, and most of all, I wish you love and happiness. I know you are on the right track, as I have seen your voyage cross so many bridges already. Take care my friend :-) Eric Morgan, I am the expert of nothing, but here is my two cents.
I think that as recovering substance abusers that we sometimes think that there will be a goal line to cross, or an epiphany of sorts that signifies our complete and total recovery. The place were we look around and say, “I made it! This is truly where I want to be”. Looking for this place is hard because it changes, hour to hour.
Being happy for me has always boiled up from the inside, not so much by my surroundings. Recieving love is not really what makes you happy, it’s sharing the love you feel inside.
My biggest fears, sorrows, and problems have been solved through faith. It seems that the greatest moments are never realized at that exact time.
Here is a somewhat detached story / revelation … I always thought that my old job was the worst. Never saw any of the positive sides to it. After the company went bankrupt, I look back at what I had and wish so much that I could go back. If I could, my days would be so much brighter.
Rambling on - :-) … maybe looking back a ways could shine more light on the here and now. Are you in love? If you are, hold on tight. As my story from before explains, we often have more in our hands than gravity dictates!
As always, I wish and want the best for you, and most of all, I wish you love and happiness. I know you are on the right track, as I have seen your voyage cross so many bridges already.

Take care my friend :-)
Eric

]]> By: aussiecynic http://themiracleprocess.com/2008/04/12/undone/comment-page-1/#comment-3312 aussiecynic Sun, 13 Apr 2008 12:29:26 +0000 http://themiracleprocess.com/?p=161#comment-3312 Boo!... why is it that so many people are feeling the same way... perhaps a moment in time when the collective mind of humanity is seeing things not as they are, but how they should be, may be it is a test of spirit to prove to ourselves that this is who we are, that we disserve what we have and what we are trying to achieve.... Running only delays the inevitable and that is dealing with the problem and that is ourselves... there comes a time when we all need to stand up and be counted.... to say this is me warts and all take it or leave it.... So this is your chance to be who you actually want to be, start a new with out the running away, and gives you the freedom to be yourself and be proud .... Boo!…
why is it that so many people are feeling the same way…
perhaps a moment in time when the collective mind of humanity is seeing things not as they are, but how they should be, may be it is a test of spirit to prove to ourselves that this is who we are, that we disserve what we have and what we are trying to achieve….

Running only delays the inevitable and that is dealing with the problem and that is ourselves… there comes a time when we all need to stand up and be counted…. to say this is me warts and all take it or leave it….

So this is your chance to be who you actually want to be, start a new with out the running away, and gives you the freedom to be yourself and be proud ….

]]> By: Bobby Revell http://themiracleprocess.com/2008/04/12/undone/comment-page-1/#comment-3311 Bobby Revell Sun, 13 Apr 2008 11:18:29 +0000 http://themiracleprocess.com/?p=161#comment-3311 Morgan, this post is really getting to me. I have had the exact same feeling, but my life has changed so much this past year for the better, I cannot go back to where I was. I never really ran away, I would run and hide inside myself - in my own little world - hiding from everyone. I would close up and keep to myself in a whirlpool of depression and misery. You have been through hell...literally. I know you have. Maybe you just aren't used to your new life enough to fully accept it. I lived for years believing that I was just an unhappy person. You know...I have had wonderful relationships that I personally ended just because I preferred to feel bad! It was how I lived for years and I just couldn't accept being happy in any way. That may sound ridiculous to some people. I lived in hell. I was the most miserable human being and I actually wanted to be miserable because being happy was just so foreign to me. I still don't fully understand how to not be miserable but I'm learning. You're so right. You cannot run anymore. You deserve happiness and every good thing that happens to you. Accept it, know it and live it. If you do make any major decisions, take your time and do it bravely. I believe in you. You have helped me understand many things perhaps nobody else could have. Just know that you have a friend in me, I am here anytime you need me!!!!! Have a great day:) Morgan, this post is really getting to me. I have had the exact same feeling, but my life has changed so much this past year for the better, I cannot go back to where I was. I never really ran away, I would run and hide inside myself - in my own little world - hiding from everyone. I would close up and keep to myself in a whirlpool of depression and misery. You have been through hell…literally. I know you have.

Maybe you just aren’t used to your new life enough to fully accept it. I lived for years believing that I was just an unhappy person. You know…I have had wonderful relationships that I personally ended just because I preferred to feel bad! It was how I lived for years and I just couldn’t accept being happy in any way. That may sound ridiculous to some people. I lived in hell. I was the most miserable human being and I actually wanted to be miserable because being happy was just so foreign to me. I still don’t fully understand how to not be miserable but I’m learning.

You’re so right. You cannot run anymore. You deserve happiness and every good thing that happens to you. Accept it, know it and live it. If you do make any major decisions, take your time and do it bravely. I believe in you. You have helped me understand many things perhaps nobody else could have.

Just know that you have a friend in me, I am here anytime you need me!!!!! Have a great day:)

]]> By: Susie http://themiracleprocess.com/2008/04/12/undone/comment-page-1/#comment-3310 Susie Sun, 13 Apr 2008 07:11:58 +0000 http://themiracleprocess.com/?p=161#comment-3310 I know that feeling, whenever I'm happy I feel the need to run. Whenever everything is ok, I feel I want something else or something more. When people tell me they are happy, but want something more, something else, I tell them to allow themselves to be happy with what they have. Yet, I never allow myself to be happy with what I have. If you are able to stay and find growth in happiness, then maybe there is hope for me too :) Good Luck! I know that feeling, whenever I’m happy I feel the need to run. Whenever everything is ok, I feel I want something else or something more. When people tell me they are happy, but want something more, something else, I tell them to allow themselves to be happy with what they have. Yet, I never allow myself to be happy with what I have. If you are able to stay and find growth in happiness, then maybe there is hope for me too :)

Good Luck!

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